So I've been here for a few years now. I've left several old accounts. Left Deviantart itself for a long time. This is coming close to a full year on a new account. But I spend very little time here, unlike I used to. I've uploaded nothing. So why am I here?
I met a lot of people, made a few friends, who I missed. I used to love checking out the art and things that were going on. I wanted to learn from other people. That didn't happen. I found a lot of things I loved, and held these up on the pedestals where they belonged, wishing I could produce something that great too. Because I put myself in awe of the works I loved, I felt I could never achieve the same standards, and didn't try because I knew I couldn't do the same. I don't remember exactly why I left, but I remember seeing much hatred in places on here, and I felt I couldn't cope with it. A lot of things have happened, and I've changed. For better, for worse? I don't know. In short, I started my "short break" from dA, life, and many other things a few years ago, and I'm still on it. It feels like it will never end...
I don't upload anything here, because I have nothing to upload. I'm empty and drained. I kept deleting my files because I was never happy with them and now I'm left with nothing. I'm hoping that this will change, as I'm taking another break right now. Hopefully I can gather some thoughts, and inspirations. Hopefully I will be able to pick up a camera or Photoshop soon. I'm years out of practice, and I wasn't very good to start with. I still have a lot to learn, but I have to start learning, by doing.
On another note, and one that is important to me. Today is the tenth anniversary of the passing of a great man. Spike Milligan, Hero, Author, and Raving Lunatic. Writer, creator and one of the stars of The Goon Show. One of the fore-fathers of alternate humour, without him, we wouldn't have had so many great comedies over the years.
Humour is the only thing that has kept me running for a long time, and I feel it's all I know. Without his humour I'd probably not be here.
"I'm a hero with cowards legs."
"I'm not afraid of dying, I just don't want to be there when it happens."
If you have a favourite Spike moment, please feel free to share it.
Love, Light and Peace.
"Dúirt mé leat go raibh mé breoite"